Read This If You Are Feeling Anxious

Disclaimer: This blog post is all opinion based & a story of my truth. I am in no means a professional. If you are struggling with anxiety or other forms of mental health, please seek help or assistance elsewhere. Thank you.

Sleepless nights. Racing thoughts. Tingling hands. Feeling like your hearts about to explode at any moment. A silent battle with your mind. “I’m good enough!” no you aren’t. “I have friends.” Are you sure about that? “What did they mean when they said that?” They hate you. “I can reach this goal!” But what if you don’t? An annoying voice inside my mind making me question my entire existence. What did I do to deserve such turmoil?

I’ve never been diagnosed or felt that I needed to get proper help because my personality hates reaching out for assistance in any form. I’ve also felt like I’ve had the strength to conquer it on my own. I’m not saying those who do seek help are weak or lesser than. On the contrary. I think the stigma around such obstacles is silly. And I’m here to set the record straight you aren’t alone. And however you manage your anxiety, that’s your truth. So here’s mine.

Looking back, I can pinpoint such feelings as early as elementary school. Although on the outside I was a very outgoing & bubbly child with tons of friends, my mind would tell me otherwise. I’d get nervous & upset in social situations. Too much attention made me cry. I’d clam up & be seen as the quiet one when my anxiety was acting as shackles keeping me from being myself. My perceptions of people would be altered where I felt like they were laughing at me instead of with me.

With every new age, my anxiety took new forms. When I would overcome one thing, a new one would take its place. No matter my abilities, there was a bit of self sabotage that would coexist. Testing anxiety was another obstacle. I’d study my ass off & know the information like the back of my hand. But as soon as the scantron hit my desk, I’d freeze. My mind would go blank. The constant doubting of my abilities was rather crippling.

This constant struggle of not feeling good enough all because of that annoying voice. From my experience, I’ve learned to keep a positive attitude through it all. On days I can barely get off the couch & eat my feelings I see it as a time to rest & recharge. On days my anxiety is causing me to be active , I take full advantage & see it as a time to be productive. There’s a sense of balance & being understanding to my feelings. I’ve developed a routine & ways that help me cope.

I joke that I’m like an infant in the sense that I need my sleep & I need proper nutrition to stay well balanced. Everyone’s bodies are different. And society thinks we all have to function in the same way. But I think we just need to do what’s best for us mentally. And we all will find routines that fit our lifestyles. I used to feel ashamed that I needed more sleep than the average person. I never could just wake up abruptly in the morning & go about my tasks. I’m more of a gradual riser who takes her mornings slow. I take in each step of my routine & almost create this meditative practice. If I don’t eat enough throughout the day, I will become so hangry & irritable. Vitamins have become my best friend in fighting my exhaustion & stressful personality.

Being a female with hormones makes anxiety feel even worse especially during my time of the month. I remember being told I could take anti-anxiety medication one week out of each month before my time of the month & then wean off of it when it was over. I thought that was the most ridiculous idea in the entire world because I thought the withdrawal would mess me up even more. So, instead I rely on vitamins like B-12, vitamin B with stress complex, iron & a regular multivitamin. I also treat myself to lots of self care during these times. I allow myself to take naps, soak in the bathtub, eat well & exercise. These strategies have done me wonders. And I’m proud to say I can manage it on my own naturally.

Alcohol was a huge cuprit of me repressing back to old behavior. In high school I had my worry wart mentality. But for some reason when I went to college & started going to parties & socially drinking ( as many of us do) , I started to feel different. Some of my most embarrassing moments was when alcohol was in the mix. Crying fits & getting so fed up you scream outside at the top of your lungs (because the Uber went to the wrong house) were just a few. And of course these were told to me after the fact because obviously I was a bit blacked out. You could easily say these experiences were typical college milestones. But to me, it was a wake up call to get it together.

I’m not opposed to drinking if you do it in a responsible manner. And I still do occasionally. All I can say is it’s different. I’m more in control. There is no longer this pressure of being someone I wasn’t. Or rather I clearly couldn’t be. I remember coming home one night after a night out lying on my bed, heart racing trying to go to sleep. I thought I was going to die. I guess this is what a panic attack feels like. And at that moment I said I needed to make a change.

Reluctantly, over time I began to understand myself more & as I matured, I gained this sense of control. I truly believe being fully aware of my struggles & accepting them was what helped me get through those said moments. Instead of just brushing it off, I’ve always had the mentality of bettering myself & becoming stronger with every experience. I’d write down my feelings, talk it out & sometimes showing some tough love when it was needed.

I also feel my anxiety has stemmed from a lack of understanding of who I truly am or rather a disapproval of myself. Instead of just accepting myself fully & taking people’s judgements with a grain of salt, I’ve taken those words & feelings to heart. I’m a rather sensitive person. And from each experience & with age, I’ve learned to have more of a backbone & confidence in my journey. Everyone goes through obstacles, makes mistakes & choose paths other people may not understand or even judge you on. It’s your own story for a reason. And I’m slowly learning to know my worth despite my setbacks. Through mindful practices, I have learned to look my anxiety straight in its face & tell it to go to hell.

In no means am I perfect. Who really is? I’ve accepted this is something I will always battle. Whether it’s planning about the future, making decisions or simply going about my day to day life, I will always have this little voice questioning every move. And I will always be telling that voice to go away. I can say I’m nowhere near where I was in the past. And I hope I continue to find peace. Focusing on gratitude , communicating my feelings, including regular self care & just simply being kinder to myself have been just a few tactics that have helped me throughout the years. One of the reasons I started on my minimalism journey was the overwhelming feeling clutter brought to my life. At my most anxious times, I thought buying more & new material items would be that cure. But it’s not. Strong relationships, communication & tapping into your feelings are what will make all the difference. And ever since I started living with less, that sense of peace & calmness has replaced the anxious feelings I had before. Minimalism is far more than a clean aesthetic. It’s my weapon of choice in this war against my thoughts & worrisome ways.

I truly hope my story has inspired at least one of you. I was hesitant to share it of fear of being judged, looked down upon or seen less than anyone else. But I think those exact reasons are why I wanted to share my personal journey. Why should we feel ashamed of such obstacles when plenty of us have gone through similar circumstances. And even if you can’t relate, why should you judge someone when you’ve never walked in their shoes. If you are reading this & resonate with my story please let me know in the comments. I’d love to hear your experiences & how you cope with whatever battles you fight. Supportive communities are what will truly make us stronger.

Love you all.

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83 thoughts on “Read This If You Are Feeling Anxious

  1. This is such a great and inspirational post. I know it must not have been easy for you to share it, but I loved reading it. I’m not diagnosed either, yet anxiety has been a struggle for me since elementary school as well. I’ve had those sleepless nights and persistent thoughts. It is truly awful. Despite that, many people suffer from anxiety and I think your story can really help some of them. You offered excellent tips too! This was a great read. I am looking forward to more of your posts.

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    1. Thanks girl!! ♥️ It was rather vulnerable but I’m glad I shared it. I agree, I think a lot of us deal with even just small forms of this & I do hope this helps / let’s people know they aren’t alone. 😊 thanks for commenting.

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  2. This post is so inspiring to read! Thank you for sharing your story with us — I have been struggling with anxiety a lot especially since my mom died, and you’re right. Practicing self care and taking care of yourself, as well as minimalism, is something that helps.

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  3. Thank you for sharing your story! I can relate to so many of your experiences with anxiety and self sabotaging behaviours. It is a comfort knowing that I am not alone in these experiences.
    Like you, I managed to find natural ways to manage it. I still have rough days here and there, but thankfully nothing like when I was younger.

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  4. I know many women, young and old who struggle with anxiety. I have learned to not fight or fear the judging voice and feelings it insights. I recognize that my mind is trying to keep me safe and solve problems that don’t exist. So I thank the voice and tell it that I want to be safe too, but fear will not help me move forward. Then I think of something positive and do something creative. When I give my brain permission to express itself without buying into the thought and then give it something constructive to do, I experience relief. I also agree that sleep and a healthy diet and exercise are vital to staying in balance. Thank you for sharing your post.

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  5. This is such a powerful post ❤️ Thank you for sharing your bravery and courage to talk about it.

    Not only myself, but many others can def relate to this! It’s a scary experience to go through, but knowing that it does get better and that we aren’t alone helps a lot.

    For me, I find it helpful taking care of myself physically and mentally, being around uplifting supportive friends and grounding techniques can be helpful for anxiety too 😊

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  6. Thank you for sharing your difficult journey. I also suffer from anxiety, which has improved since I’ve retired. There were several periods of years at work when I needed medication to cope. I would encourage your readers to talk to their doctor about their feelings, no matter how hard it is. There is great relief available and I have been able to wean myself off the meds very easily when my stressors were reduced. I was still a high functioning professional working full-time on medication. Some people see medication as a failure. I see it as a strength. Knowing when to ask for help is an important life skill.

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  7. Thank you for sharing your story with us. 😌 I am sorry that you’ve struggled with this for so long. I don’t have a diagnosis but I also struggle with feelings of being judged and wondering what people think of me, second guessing basically everything. I am very indecisive and worry a lot. I am definitely better than I was before, but it’s not an easy journey as you know! It’s nice to know I’m not the only one and you are right that we should be here for each other as a community. ☺️ I use a mindfulness to keep me calm and I like to do yoga every now and then too. 😌

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  8. That first paragraph is me, 100%. Contradictory thoughts tumble through my head faster than I can acknowledge them, and it feels like my own mind is my rival. Like you, I’ve always felt like this. School felt like an ongoing battle, as I struggled with social situations, and my teachers and peers always wondered why. I didn’t feel like anyone felt the same way I did, and it was a very isolating experience.

    I love this – ‘society thinks we all have to function in the same way. But I think we just need to do what’s best for us mentally’. I agree as I find that what works well for me doesn’t for other people, but neither method is wrong.

    I am glad you have found strategies that work well for you! Thank you so much for sharing your story and experience; it is nice to hear others’ opinions. You are right, in the sense that it makes others feel less alone. 💜

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    1. I’m so glad you found comfort in this post. I’m glad to know we aren’t alone in our struggles even when it does feel isolating at times. or for me, i wanted to keep it a secret. thanks for reading & posting such a nice comment 🙂

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  9. Thanks for sharing your story. I can understand what you mean about needing sleep and nutrition to keep yourself balanced. I use to need at least 4 hours of sleep a night to reduce the likelihood of my anxiety causing a psychotic episode. No easy feat when I was an insomniac

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  10. This is a great post, thanks so much for sharing your story. I really needed to read this today as my anxiety has been working in overdrive all day. Recovery and healing are not linear processes; I was diagnosed in 2012 and there are STILL days where I feel completely out of control. I’m so glad these conversations are happening and that we can all lean on each other.

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  11. This makes me so happy my post made you feel a bit better today! It’s def an ongoing process. some days better than others. luckily as you said, we are more open to have these conversations so we can all come together & support one another. even if it’s simply a comment on the internet. 🙂

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  12. You are inspiring! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us, I know it takes a lot of courage. I have felt this way a few times in my life and it makes me feel better seeing others so as well. It’s a lot to process and some days are definitely better than others! Thank you again for sharing and I’m here for support!

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  13. I could have wrote this. You described anxiety perfectly. I made the mistake in October of drinking a beer when I knew I was feeling anxious and I had a scare when my heart was racing when I tried to sleep. Thanks for sharing your story! I think it helps not only call out the fact that more people struggle with this than we realize, but because someone out there might not realize what anxiety looks like. I know that I haven’t been diagnosed either and I don’t take medication for it, and it’s taken me a long time to realize that I sometimes struggle with anxiety. By tracking my symptoms, I’m learning when I’m most likely to feel anxious (the days leading up to my cycle). I’m also using supplements and self-care as a means to cope. Glad you’ve found a way to manage it yourself. Hugs!

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  14. Amazing post! I must commend your bravery to write about your struggles with anxiety. I was hesitant as well before posting my post about anxiety. I was afraid of looking like some strange girl spilling out her feelings randomly on the internet but I click publish anyways. I wasn’t really expecting the comments I got and it made me feel less alone and your post is going to do the same. I grew up with really bad anxiety and I always thought I was the only one who felt that way so I never spoke out about it. After writing about my struggles, I felt a bit lighter since it was the proper first time I’ve addressed my anxiety by myself. My anxiety is still with me but not as horrendous as when I was in high school or even last year lool. I remember seeing your tweet and after doing my post and seeing how great did for me, I had to give a little push to go for it and you smashed it. Your story is inspiring and I’m happy to hear that you found ways to manage it. Remember, you’re not alone. 😊

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    1. That’s how I’m feeling today. I’m so glad I shared my story because I didn’t realize how many people would relate to it. I’m glad your anxiety isn’t as bad anymore. Thank you so much! I’m glad you and so many others encouraged me and gave me that push to write this. And you are so right, we aren’t alone 💕

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  15. I love how you started your introduction with the visual descriptions of anxiety. I’m sorry for the tough nights you’ve gone through; it’s hard when you think it’s not okay to reach out. I also like the way you pointed out that anxiety evolved in many forms in this age, it’s really true! fascinating reflection! thanks for sharing.

    http://www.lifebeginsattwenty.com

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  16. I loved reading this post and thank you for sharing your story! I have never been diagnosed but think that I definitely have some form of anxiety at times and I see a lot of myself in what you’ve said.

    Tash – A Girl with a View

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  17. Yay you wrote it! So pleased you have shared your story. It is an excellent post! Reading it is like reading about myself and I feel less alone because of it so thank you! I’m so glad you are in a better place now. Self care is so important when it comes to anxiety. I’m sure your post will inspire others, it’s awesome well done!!

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  18. Thanks for sharing your story and experience. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder around 7 years ago now but I’ve since been undiagnosed and rarely experience anxiety anymore! It’s so important to share these stories to show people they’re not alone x

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  19. Thank you for sharing! I can relate to a lot of what you’ve been through, even the mix of anxiety with alcohol 😫 Cheers to loving yourself more and rising above things that bring you down! 💗

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  20. You are so inspirational. I too have suffered with anxiety. In my early college years my anxiety caused me so many embarrassing moments. Sometimes till this day I overthink everything and take everything personally. I feel sometimes overwhelmed with my thoughts. Working out and eating healthy too has helped me too. I currently take herbs such as ashwaganda to help me control my anxiety. As I am starting this blogging journey I overthink everything I do. It’s so nice to have this wonderful blogging community. I loved getting to read your story of how you overcome your anxiety. ❤️😀

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    1. Aww thank you so much! glad to know we aren’t alone in these struggles. Yes, i love that we have such a supportive community here. I’m grateful for each person.

      p.s. sorry it took me a while to reply. this comment ended up in the spam section for some reason!

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  21. Aw, loved reading this! Sending you virtual hugs!! I’m generally a confident person throughout life and never really experienced anxiety til I was an adult but I get the feeling. I actually have a fear of driving and my body literally tenses up and my brain starts overworking whenever I think about driving somewhere. I’ve actually started getting help on it which is nice. Thanks for sharing xx

    http://www.lynnmumbingmejia.com

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  22. I really feel this post. It’s all about knowing what triggers you and what your response is to those triggers. Mine is cleaning and organizing when I feel anxious or out of control. Really cool that you are sharing this!!

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  23. Totally relatable! This is what having anxiety is like. Much of my own story is similar. It’s great you’re managing the anxiety—self care, mindfulness, gratitude all of this is so important when you have minds like ours. Thanks for sharing.

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  24. I know it wouldn’t be easy for you. But in the last you really made me motivated. so thanks. actually its been a past month when i was feel the same situations but finally i am just now all happy,

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  25. I’m a fellow messy drunk, in the sense that that’s usually when I completely break down. And while 2020/21 has been tough, I’ve barely drunk alcohol at all in these last 12 months and I’m realising how much I really don’t need it in my life. Hope you’re ok ❤ xxx

    Katie | katieemmabeauty.com

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  26. What a great post B! Having suffered with Severe Anxiety, Depression and Mini PTSD bursts in the past, I love your message about how reaching out for help is a sign of strength, not weakness. If I didn’t ask for help, then I have nowhere near where I would be now, I dread to even think of it!

    I love seeing Mental Health becoming more of an open topic that people talk about, it really warms my heart. Mental health is something that affects each and every one of us, and is something that should be embraced, not something that we should be embarrassed or ashamed of.

    I hope you have a lovely weekend!

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      1. No worries! Completely with you there, Mental Health is slowly starting to get the respect it serves, hopefully this continues!

        My pleasure, thank you! I hope you have a lovely weekend 😁

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  27. This post is amazing. Very inspiring. It must not have been easy writing this let alone sharing it on your platform. I know what you have been through/go through. I find myself more similar to you after reading this post. I see so much of myself in this post is almost scary. Not sure if it is a good or bad thing. But thank you so much for sharing.

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  28. Great read. I can definitely relate to how anxiety evolves into different forms over the years. I love your statement– “I also feel my anxiety has stemmed from a lack of understanding of who I truly am or rather a disapproval of myself.” I’ve never stopped to think of anxiety in terms of the role I may play in feeding it. That’s quite a revelation. Thank you for sharing and for inspiring others to do the same.

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  29. This was a great post and thank you for sharing with us! I grew up having anxiety without even knowing it and looking back now it’s all very clear. I have a hard time coming to grips when I feel super anxious and haven’t found out what works for me yet but I’m on a journey to find out!

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  30. Thank you for having the courage to share your story. It’s never easy to reveal a torment, but by doing so, you help people who are experiencing anxiety to not feel alone in this situation. You came a long way. You’ve found what works for you which is encouraging for anyone living with the same challenge. I wish you the best.

    Corinne

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